life is being a big mean bitch, while im wandering its goddamn horizon of escapades and disinteresting interest.
i have, until recently, been lied to on a phenomenal scale of unfortunate events..
i dont know what to do with everything and everyone.. including thyself.
so what can i do with myself when every concrete surface is crumbing into ruins of despair.?
suicide is out of the question..
social interaction is na-da..
piece of mind is a piece of shit..
emotions are a roller coaster i have to ride indubitably in its front seat..
MOST OF ALL THESE FUCKING PEOPLE LIE TO ME.
so what is their to do??
they just watch in their movie theater while i live some fucked up film of self deterioration..
why is life treating me like this???